Thinking and crying...

After a while, you learn the difference, the subtle difference, between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning, and that company does not always mean safety. Yet, you start to learn that kisses aren’t contracts, and gifts are not promises. Then you start to accept your fails with raised head and opened eyes, gracefully as a child but without the grow-ups’ sadness.
You learn to build all your roads today, cause tomorrow’s land is so uncertain for making plans, and the future usually falls into the cracks. As time goes by, you learn that you can be burned by the sun, if you stay exposed for too long. And you learn that how much you care it’s not important. Some people simply don’t care.
Then you accept that, no matter how good someone is for you, this person is still hurting you once in a while, and you’ll have to forgive him for that. You learn that talking can be relieving for emotional pain, but it’s not safe to expose yourself like that. You turn out finding that years are taken to build hope, and that it can be destroyed in a second. And you learn that you can take only a moment doing something you’ll regret for the rest of your life.
You learn that real relationships keep on growing even separated for long distances, and that our good friends are the family we were allowed to choose. Then you learn that what you have in your life is not a big deal, WHO you have is what really matters. And you learn that you don’t need to exchange your friends, if you understand that your friends also change. And you realize that you and your best friend can do everything, or nothing, and still have the greatest moments. And you find out that the people you most care are taken from you very fast and very aggressively – that’s why we should always leave the ones we love with loving words and attitudes, cause we may not see them again.
Yet, you learn that circumstances and environments may influence you, but you are the one who’s responsible for yourself. Then you start to learn that you should not compare yourself with other people, only with the best you know you can be. And you find out that you may take too long to become who you wanna be, and time is short. Then you realize that it doesn’t matter how far you’ve got, where you’re leading it’s what’s really important and, if you do not know where you’re going, anywhere will do.
Then you learn that either you control your actions or they’ll control you, and that being flexible doesn’t mean you’re weak or not personality cause, doesn’t matter how delicate and fragile a situation can be, there’re always two sides. You learn that heroes are people who did what was necessary, taking and facing all the consequences. Then you’ll know that even heroes have the right to bleed. And you find out that patience requires a lot of practice, and that the one who you’d expect to kick you when you’re down can be the only one who’ll help you getting up.
And you realize that maturity is all about experience, and not about how many birthdays you’ve celebrated. You learn that you carry a whole lot more from your parents inside you than you’d expect. And also that you should never tell a child that dreams are silly, cause few things are so humiliating, and it would be a tragedy if a kid believed in it.
You learn that when you fell angry you have the right to feel this way, but you do not get the right to be cruel. And you turn out finding that, if someone doesn’t love you the way you want, it doesn’t mean that he doesn’t love you with all he can, cause there’re people who love you but simply don’t know how to show or live it.
The next lesson you learn is that is not always enough to be forgiven by someone, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. And you learn that with the same harshness you judge, you will be sentenced at a time. Then you’re taught that it doesn’t matter in how many pieces you heart has been broken, the world won’t stop for you to fix it. And you learn that time is not something that can go back, so plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
At the end, you realize you can take it… You learn that you are really strong and want to go so much further, after thinking you weren’t able to do it anymore.